Monday, January 23, 2017

My Many Callings

I have been told I will have many callings. In our church those usually mean jobs that we do for free. The running joke for me is I never only have one calling and I can't keep my callings for longer than a year. (although right now I've been in 2 of my callings for a year and a half!! My 3rd one was just an assignment :)) Regardless it's interesting these callings we have.

We have more than just the free jobs we are given in the church. A few years ago one of my callings was full-time student at BYU. Two of my favorite callings are ones I will continue to carry into the eternities, that of wife and mother. These two sacred callings are the ones I have been pondering. A few weeks ago my husband was called as bishop which would give me the title of bishops wife. What does that even mean? I don't know. There isn't any scripture on how to be a decent bishops wife, in fact there is no handbook, no general conference talk, I can't even find an obscure remark by an apostle on the subject. Although you will find an article or two about a wife of a bishop who decided to pen some advice. Well I can't give you that--I've only been in this role for a couple of weeks!!

The only thing I can tell you is the sacred calling of wife is just that a sacred calling. Satan is working his best to destroy all that is good, sacred, and reverent. First and foremost is that calling that we should hold dear to our hearts, that we should not take lightly, that we should learn to fulfill. You can google the many ways to fulfill that calling. That's not what I was pondering, I was trying to figure out how to not feel lost in such a heavy calling. Sometimes I feel like those teenagers who have just graduated from high school, will start college in the fall, but want to take the summer off to 'find' themselves. As a wife I try desperately to 'find' myself. To not feel lost in this calling and just being Dave's wife, but to be Jennie, the wife of Dave, who now happens to be a bishop!

I came across a scripture the other day that put this in perspective. Matthew10:39, "He that findeth his life shall lose it: and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it." To me this pointed out, hey if you throw yourself into a life of serving and service, including serving your husband, you will eventually find Jennie, the wife of Dave. The Lord will mold the talents, attributes, and values that I need to succeed, or accomplish the work the Lord has sent me--Jennie, here to do. Now I know this is what I should be doing, but it's hard and I'm selfish. Why should I serve him all the time? I want to go read a book for a few hours!! And yet, that isn't quite Heavenly Father's plan, is it?

So as I am trying to find myself, I am losing myself in being a better wife to Dave. In essence a better bishops wife (again whatever that means!!). Always diligently striving to serve better, to do better, to be better. And that is really all the Lord is asking!


Thursday, January 19, 2017

Why I do what I do

I was reading in Doctrine and Covenants today and pondering why we do what we do. Is it for the recognition of the world, or the love we feel for our Heavenly Father? One will give you instant gratification that won't last to long. The other will help you to diligently move forward.

As I've thought about my day and the 100's of loads of laundry I've washed, the gazillion miles of carpet I've vacuumed, the thousands of meals I've prepared I've often asked myself, why the heck am I doing this? Who is really going to care if my carpets are clean, or I have clothes that don't smell like 3 week old sweat (or teenage boy), or that we eat a well balanced meal everyday? Well probably some people around us will be grateful we don't stink, but other than that, we could have cereal every night and most people probably wouldn't bat an eye. In fact some people might think my kids are pretty lucky to have a mom that let's them eat cereal every night.

The Lord has entrusted to me 5 special spirits to clothe, clean, and feed. Am I willing to do all that because I love the Lord? The world is never going to give me props for keeping 5 other people in my household alive (and yes I've included my husband in this because, well... I do his laundry too!!) I will probably never be acknowledged for having carpets that you can sit on, or food that is edible. But the Lord knows everything I am doing, and he is so appreciative that I have decided to show my love to him by loving my family and taking care of them.

I know I will eventually get my rewards, I also know I've already gotten so many. But knowing why I do what I do makes doing what I do seem pretty important. I'm watching over some of his children. I'm a little bit awestruck that the Lord trusts me enough to do that, and yet here I am.

I hope I can remember this as I am doing all those things necessary to run my family and household. Sometimes when we remember why we are doing what we are doing those things don't seem quite so burdensome!!


Sunday, January 01, 2017

Self-Respect

As everyone is in the mood to set goals for the coming year, let me remind you of something really important. Respect yourself!! I love the quote by Elder Holland, "Be peaceful. Believe in God and yourself. You are doing better than you think you are."

Goals are not meant to beat us down because we don't achieve them, goals are to make us a little bit better than we were yesterday. Because I want to love who I am and my accomplishments, I need to focus on what I've achieved, not what I lack!!  So today set a goal that you will accomplish. Even if it is as simple as getting dressed in decent clothes. I'm serious how many of us realize it's noon before we are in a good pair of jeans and nice shirt?!

Just to be accountable I'll tell you my goal for tomorrow. I like to wake up early, but I'm not always an amazing person to be around at that time, so my goal is to wake up happy. I might try having a list by my bed of things that make me happy, or as soon as I pop out of bed get on my knees and start listing all the things I'm grateful for, or singing the cougar fight song as soon as I'm up. Whatever I choose to do the goal is to smile as soon as I am out of bed.

I love this life and I love that as we achieve these little goals they will turn into bigger goals. I know as we respect ourselves and remember who we are and where we came from we recognize that we aren't doing so bad. In fact we are doing pretty good, and there are some pretty important people that are rooting for us. So hop to and reach those goals!!!